Down

This picture has nothing to do with this post but wanted to post it because this was about a month before all of this brain drama when I was feeling good and had hair. And I miss my hair.

I am so down. Seriously, why can't I seem to get better. My immune system is not so good right now. I have to be careful not to be around sick people. I ended up getting sick a few days ago. I got a really bad head cold. My head is killing me! I am not supposed to put much pressure on my head. I have tried not to blow my nose too hard but what do you do. So the last few days I have had a hard time even moving my head. So I've spent lots of time in bed. I have had really bad leg cramps in the middle of the night and every morning. I'm thinking it's my seizure medication causing that but the doctor has already changed that once so who knows. When am I going to get better? I just want to feel normal again. The pain is like a throbbing pain in my brain. Like know other headache I have ever had. It Kills! Sorry my posts are so depressing but this time of my life things are a bit that way. I am not very cute these days either. But thats OK I'm just grateful that I'm alive but just wanting to be better. I already missed valentines day with my kids, I better not be sick for Easter. Hopefully my next post will be a happier one.

I hate hospitals!

Can I just say that I hate hospitals! The last stay was a whopping 10 days of no fun. Meningitis sucks!
I had to be on heavy antibiotics for 14 days. They made me so sick. I lost 10 pounds while in the hospital.

Then I was able to come home and still had to be on the stupid antibiotics. I broke into a horrible rash all over my body. I'm controlling it with steroids.

But the best was my face. I am so cute huh? Brad thinks I was unrecognizable. I'm off the drugs and feeling alot better now. And I have already gained 8 pounds back but hey that means I'm feeling better right?

And isn't my hair growing in nicely?